I cried…

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too…` I thought to my self, and I cried.

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Comments

  1. animus says

    "i love him but i'm just too shy, and i don't know why." haaayyy…sabihin na kasi ang tunay nararamdaman. 🙂

    from the movie my best friend's wedding: "if you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. otherwise the moment just passes you by."

  2. Lord CM says

    @Amor…
    Hehehe 😀 Sabihin mo na parekoy, wag mo nang hintayin na sa kanya manggaling, mamaya nyan parehas pala kayo nag aantayan lolzz

    @Pogi…
    Syempre naman Pogi, mahirap ung walanghiya eh lolzz

    @Tin…
    Napanood ko rin yang My BestFriend's Wedding, parang tulad nga ng istorya sa taas 😀

  3. Elektra says

    which is why if u like someone tell him/her about your feelings but be ready to face the consequence… so at least no hurt feelings like this. Magpakatotoo sbi nga dba? nice post:D

  4. Noel Ablon says

    Ito ang bagay na di mo na kayang ibalik, something you may regret someday. Parang related to doon sa previous mong post ah.

    Anyways, nawa maging leksyon ito to everyone. It is never too late if you make your move – hala sige magtapat na pero kung ikaw ay tali na, manahimik ka na lang at manatili sa iyong pinagkaka-talian hehe!

  5. Renz says

    sobrang natouch naman ako dito..nakakartelate ako pero alam ko naman na hindi ganun sinasabi niya sa likod ng isip niya kea d na rin ako umaasa.. LOL. Best Friends lang kami..hanggang dun na lang yun. :[

  6. ladyinadvance says

    ammmff naman naiyak ako…sheesshh!….

    but nwey kung hindi lang natakot na sabhin ang mga nararamdaman ng bawat isa eh d sana may nagbago…minsan kac ung takot natin ang nagiging dahilan para hindi natin makuha kung ano man ang nagpapasaya sa puso natin….
    sayang na pag ibig….

  7. Badong says

    may shorter versin nito na kumalat sa text a few years back. at dahil isa pa akong tinedyer non na wala pang muwang, nadama ko rin siya ng todo. muntik na rin akong maiyak. aheheh

  8. isladenebz says

    Nakakaluha. Before I read this, I read your previous post on Mark Twain saying we'd be sorry for the things we didn't do than those we did (or something like that).

    Eto na nga ung application.

    Kakalungkot ang ending.

  9. SEAQUEST says

    Paano na kaya di sinasadya ang darama ng puso ko..hehehe KIMERALD lang ah hehehehe…but too sad maybe they really not meant for each other…

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